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2 Kings 7:3-9
3 Now four men who were lepers were at the entrance of the city's
gate; and they said to one another, Why do we sit here until we die? 4
If we say, We will enter the city — then the famine is in the city,
and we shall die there; and if we sit still here, we die also. So now
come, let us go over to the army of the Syrians. If they spare us
alive, we shall live; and if they kill us, we shall but die. 5 So they
arose in the twilight and went to the Syrian camp. But when they came
to the edge of the camp, no man was there. 6 For the Lord had made the
Syrian army hear a noise of chariots and horses, the noise of a great
army. They had said to one another, The king of Israel has hired the
Hittite and Egyptian kings to come upon us. 7 So the Syrians arose and
fled in the twilight and left their tents, horses, donkeys, even the
camp as it was, and fled for their lives. 8 And when these lepers came
to the edge of the camp, they went into one tent and ate and drank,
and carried away silver, gold, and clothing, and went and hid them [in
the darkness]. Then they entered another tent and carried from there
also and went and hid it. 9 Then they said one to another, We are not
doing right. This is a day of [glad] good news and we are silent and
do not speak up! If we wait until daylight, some punishment will come
upon us [for not reporting at once]. So now come, let us go and tell
the king's household.
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I sometimes feel like a beggar, sometimes like a leper. Marginalized, no one's friend, always seems to be at the receiving end of things. Never good enough to contribute. Sorry for myself to be in the state I am in, just rotten inside. The last one to be picked to form a team.

No one and no where to turn to.

Its in do or die situations that we perform do or die stunts. When the economy is bad, people start to be creative, like this newspaper article in Swedish I saw today, stating that the number of patents filed during years of recession far outnumber patents filled durign good years. Yes, man is creative, like his creator, but unlike the Creator, man is lazy and sometimes needs a good kick in the butt to get his ass of the chair and start working.

I digress.

When you have nothing to lose, risk has no meaning.
Thats when it becomes one small step to you but one big leap for everyone else watching.

I had lived my whole life in KL, 20 full years, when I decided to venture out to Singapore. At that crossroads, I felt bored with my life. It was easy, everything was going along smoothly. Dad bought me a car, I was in an ok uni and had the admiration of my classmates (because of the car I think), church was a walk in the park, with a succession plan for the Youth group including me.

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times.

Is this what life is all about?

I took a small step out, and that made all the difference. I went out with the intention of scurrying back once I was done with my degree, but instead stayed in Singapore for 7 years. Then I took another small step out of Signapore, and now I'm where I am.

I expected to be killed by the geniuses in Singapore, or Stockholm for that matter. This time die die sure die lar...

But instead I find myself feasting. Feasting on the blessings that God had provided. Did I hear a voice from heaven saying 'GO!'?
no
Then how did I know its God's will? Did I know that I will have success in this endeavor?

28 years ago, there was a visitation of God in my local church. To cut a long story short, a word was given to me, or rather to my mum, since i only understood goo-gah-gah language then, and not English.
It said that I would go south when I was 20 years old. And that would lead to something even greater, to fulfil my destiny God has put in me.

I was told of this, but didn't really harp about it. Just did my own thing.
Only when I was about to graduate with my Honours that mum reminded me of the promise.

Chapter 7, Verse 1
Then Elisha said, hear the word of the Lord. Thus says the Lord: Tomorrow about this time a measure of fine flour will sell for a shekel and two measures of barley for a shekel.

It teaches me that:
1. God tells you whats going on in advance
2. The correct direction to go is forward

Do I know whats coming up next?
No
Am I afraid of not being in control?
No

The only thing I know now is to keep on walking forward, and to spread the good news, so here I am, reporting to the household of the King of Kings, that my life has been blessed richly, and the words of the prophet are true.